A Sweet Heartache

Somebody said it right "your life rushes from heaven to hell in a fraction of seconds." Last night when I spoke to a friend after ages he told me about his breakup and how his relationship changed his life. When I was trying to talk to him he interested by asking a simple question, 'Rish! Meri jagah tu hoti to kya karti? And I smiled......

His question made me think about my most cherished and beautiful moments I had some years ago. The phase that made me a better person, helped me to grow and taught me some important lessons. The kind of high it gave me is something I miss every second, it changed my life, made me close to my goal by enhancing my creativity and imagination. I never felt that way before. I felt as if I have everything in life. This is what a relationship does, it makes you happy. You fall in love with yourself. It makes you positive about everything and everyone. You live life as if there is no tomorrow... And then suddenly one day it's all over. You're back to square one. Nothing is same.

Yes, you have all rights to feel bad, frustrated and angry at that person or situation or yourself. You don't know whom to blame for all this, you cry day and night and just want that one person back in your life. You curse yourself because of circumstances. You feel sorry for yourself and that's okay.... It’s human nature. We don't think about other persons situation, we don’t know what is going on in his/her head. Just because there is no communication we don't have any right to judge them, we have to accept that their part is over in our life and they made us a better person. They come into your life as your soulmate, change you for your own good all you need to do is take the good part from those moments and cherish them forever.

And here is something I learnt, that you have to accept people for who they are, learn to give without accepting anything in return and eventually things fall into place sooner or later just be positive.

Honestly speaking even I never thought this could happen to me. But today, I am thankful to god for sending that person in my life, because their presence introduced me to a different world, the world where love is worshiped. And, today here I am without any regrets and with a sweet heartache smiling and living life queen size. J

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Traveler by Heart...

मेरा फलसफा कंधे पे मेरा बस्ता... चला मैं चला ले चला  रास्ता....
So according to some close friends these magical words from the song Ilaahi describe me in a perfect manner.. and now I agree.

December 2013,  when I left my job just to travel, I realized how far I've come in past 2yrs from what I was. Back than I was connected to my dreams, the world which I always wanted to create around me, the world that involved lot of things which are not around now.

Last week I spoke to a friend after 2 long years, he is one of those who knows me in an out and he asked me one simple question, what happened to that old Rish I knew? where is she? Is she alive? and I had no answer to this question. Another friend when chatting with me raised the same point but in a polite manner saying I miss Rishika Singh. Now when people call me, their first question is "Kaunse shehar mei hai?" and that makes me think have I changed a lot that people need to ask this question.


Four months I was traveling in search of something, I covered various places of the country, but all questions are still unanswered. There is something I'm looking for and I cant find it. I was looking for myself. I guess traveling changed the philosophy of my life and it made me realized that you cant really plan your life. So here is what it taught me and how it should be, after all change is good.:)


Traveling is like meditation, it changes you from inside, you look at the world from a different perspective. For me traveling is not about going to one particular place its about being somewhere
and doing something which is not a part of your routine, because I'm not a 9 to 5 kinda person.

You meet new people, you become more social, you learn to interact with strangers, you make new friends which is not easy. You improve from every direction. After traveling you feel lot more confident than what you were earlier.

Another important thing it teaches you is that you learn to go with the flow. You stop expecting things, yo stop assuming things and you learn to survive in every situation.

Traveling teaches you to observe things, people around you and that helps a lot in understanding your surrounding, you learn about body language by looking at people, their actions the way they speak will teach u a lot about them.


And the most important thing it teaches you is that you cant work and travel at the same time.


There is another set of people who are close to me and my family have a different opinion altogether, some they are jealous of me because I travel so much and some say how can I travel so much? Well, high time I should start taking all their views with a pinch of salt and learn to live with it and try my best to be in touch with people. :)
After traveling for months I know I have changed and I've changed for good now I dont wait for people, I can let go anything and anyone,  I live life queen size without the King. :)

The Secret Wish List

The idea of making my wish list came to my mind after I read Preeti Shenoy's The Secret Wish List.. and this blogpost is coming up after I had a serious discussion with Dodo about what all I want to do in my Life...  A list which will help me to know more about myself...

1.  Travel each and every corner of India.
2. Buy XUV and then Audi.
3. Work for a Film (production).
4. Complete Mumbai Marathon..
5.Go for Safari.
6. Climb Mount Everest.
7. Get high and lose control.
8. Learn Salsa.
9. Go to Ladakh on my own Royal Enfield.
10. Watch Kuch Kuch Hota Hain with bestie.
11. Win some national award.
12. Go to Pakistan with my best friend.
13. Make a documentary on my Love.
14. Shoot Shah Rukh Khan with my camera.
15. Work with Vishal Bhardwaj/ Anuraag Kashyap/ Tigmaanshu Dhulia.
16. Own a royal sword.
17. Adopt a girl child.
18. Dance in rain.
19. Own a bar.
20. Witness a meteor fall.
21. Listen to Gulzar sahab.
22. Buy a pent house for my parents.
23. Click all my favorite people... friends, mentors etc.
24. Go to North East part of the country just to watch the Sunrise.
25. Attend Ganga ghat aarti.
26. Go to Rishikesh just to have marijuana.
27. Organize a Holi party where everyone is allowed to have Bhaang.

28. Do – Bungee jumping, Skydiving, Parachuting, Paragliding, Deep Sea Diving.

29. Attend AR Rehman's concert.

30. Go on a road trip.

31. Enjoy the first Rains with my family.

32. Tell some people what I feel for them... take away all their problems.. make this world a better place for them.

and lastly...

33. Make a difference in someones life.

I just wish I achieve each and every point.. Lets see. :)

Friends beyond the virtual world....

Happy time flies fast.....

Its the first thing that comes to my mind when I think how blessed I am to have some handful but precious friends. Friends who are just a phone call away... Friends who are always there for me no matter what...
Friends who will never judge me... Friends who are beyond the rules and regulations of this world...

These are the friends I can count on  when entire world is against me... these are the friend who tell me when I go wrong.
Aarzoo aunty is one  of them... she entered my life when I just came out of my school life...i was just 17 that time. She is one of those friends who always blessed me who always prayed for me, who supported me during  the bad phase of my life... With Aarzoo aunty it was that instant connection.... mutual liking towards music... movies..books... pure and devoted love for Rumi and Ghalib... it was after a year of our facebook friendship we exchanged our numbers.. I still remember I spoke to her for the first  time on 16th October 2011 after my college... we spoke for almost an hour and it felt like m talking to my mirror... yes that is what she  is  for me... my mirror reflection... we share same love towards our friends.. always there for them.. standing with them through thick and thin... I never thought one day she will be so close to me that I will fly to meet aunty and her kids.. but trust me its an honor to know her... I'm  thankful to god that she and her family are a part of my life...

Aunty has two anmol ratan in her life Beno and Dodo... what to say about  Beno she is sweet, funny and sometimes she is sarcastic so people think before taking panga with  her... but yes if you try to understand her.. she is a gem... an independent woman who doesn't gives a  fuck about the world... and I know one day all her dreams will come true....

Dodo... yes that's what I call her one  helluva girl.. she is the queen of straight face jokes and don't  get on her bad side she can hang you by your balls... A very good photographer who is always ready to learn... I believe one day she will surprise all of  us by becoming a great writer..

Most of the ppl in my circle think that aunty is my new best friend.. but she is beyond that.... she is a true, genuine friend I have, a friend who is just a call away and I don't need to think before calling her at 1am or 2 am or 3 for that matter... Nobody will screw their night to come and pick you from airport at 6am.. she did.. I felt special... I don't remember when was the last time I was so happy... I was not happy when I got my job or my first salary... Nobody will take out time from their busy schedule aunty and her kids did.. They took care of me like a baby..
By the way, she is my Sufi mentor .... jee haan! that's true... whenever its about spirituality  I can always talk to aunty... let it be a silly question or a serious doubt I count on aunty and  I know she has the answer..

I can only say that... sometimes we should count our blessings and learn how blessed we are.. because true happiness comes from these special relations.. which don't come in limelight but they secretly wish good for you... they will not tell you how much they love you but they will make you fall in love with yourself...

Movie Review: Saheb Biwi aur Gangster Returns

There are some directors who make films which are so good that you need time for those films to sink in..... Saheb Biwi aur Gangster Returns is one of those. 
SBAGR takes the story forward from where the SBAG ended.Each and every character is perfect to represent the Royalty.

Jimmy Shergill who is bound to wheelchair but with his high spirits he grabs 10/10 for his kick ass performance. His emotions are expressed through his eyes and I must say the way he carries royalty and class throughout the film is not easy. His dialogue delivery is amazing and the way he says 'Sarkar ne humaari daulat toh cheen li, par fitrat nahi cheen paaye.'

Irrfan Khan the highest point of this film, the best acting of this year atleast. He will make you laugh and there are scenes where viewers can feel his pain. Irrfan is a perfect Gangster here. His character shows how Rajputs/Thakurs cant give up when it comes to pride. Irrfan is the soul of this film do watch this film for Indrajeet Singh.

Mahie Gill.. the hero of this film who plays slutty-royal-wife. Trust me you cant neglect Mahie the actor or Madhvi the character. At the same time you cant stop admiring her accomplishments with the brain and later you feel sorry for her. This time she is more aggressive, more ambitious and now she can go to any extent to get Aditya Pratap's attention.

Soha Ali Khan she has a small role in the film but she has done justice to her character.Her role gets strong when the story reaches it climax stage.

Must say Tigmanshu Dhulia is the master of  Dialogues, like 
'Bahut sasti ho chuki ho tum. Tumhe dene ke liye hamare paas chillar bhi nahin hai.’ 
‘hamare toh gaaliyon pe bhi taaliyan padti hai.'
'Jung hogi... ghamasan hogi...'
'Hume mard hi kyu milte hai... Shayar kyun nahi milte!'

Saheb Biwi aur Gangster Returns is a story of Lust, Lies, Royalty, Politics, Pride. There are many twists and turns in the film.. the film is little draged, the climax is excellent but editing is equally bad.  It is not as good as first film but do watch it for its characters and dialogues. 

Rating : ***

Ohh Womaniyaaa

I strongly believe that the strongest thing in this world is Women. God created a beautiful world and filled it with beautiful people – women. And just to appreciate their power, beauty and grace, He created men. However much a man can try, but he can never match a woman's self control, inner strength and will to move forward. A man has strong bones, but can never look into the eyes of a woman with conviction. There is a reason why she is not physically stronger than man. And the reason is she doesn't need that brute strength. Her one gaze is enough.

If men are physically strong don't forget women are emotionally strong.. 

And today I would like salute some most beautiful women in my life:

• Maa: Maata shri... she is my life, my backbone.. Maa always taught me that no matter how sad you are in your life, don't hurt anyone. Thank you maa for giving me full freedom to live my life in my own ways... You just need one person to believe in you and she is that one person... Whenever things go wrong I just need one hug from her and m ready to face the world. Love you Maa. :*

• Dheera (10-6 = Mam, after 6pm = Maaaate) :D She is my boss.. she is my friend.. she is my helpline number.. my gol - gappe partner.. She is a true inspiration for every girl who believes in her dreams. She taught me that there is nothing wrong or right, its how you look at it..... and things always fall into place end of the day... My day is incomplete without meeting her. PS: You're my pumpkin pumpkin, hello honey bunny *runs and hides* :P :D

• Farheen Mam: The sexiest October baby... yeah! thats what I call her... My Delhi trip is incomplete without her... One good thing about Farheen mam is that I don't need to think before calling her if she is in town she will take out time and come to GIP Costa coffee :D She is a blessing, a true Rockstar.

• Shweta: Yo Chaps!! :P Shweta knows me for almost a decade now.. from school to junior college to BMM ... from school  mid terms to board exams.. from board exams to grad semesters. Shweta was always there.. We talk to each other ONLY when one of us is in deep shit and the other person cant do anything about it... :P Thank you Chap for giving friendship a new meaning.... :)

• Aarzoo Aunty: We hit off as if we know each other since ages.. but the truth is we never met each other.. she is my khurafaati partner, I don't have to say anything to her half of the time we sail in same boat :-P we share the same passion towards music, books, her entire family is close to me and I promise aunty very soon I will fly to Hyderabad just to meet you Beno and Allu. <3 Love you guys.

 

• Lastly... I will not name her but she is a dear friend who taught me what Friendship is... Bada wala thankyou for those reality checks and thanks for teaching me what not to do in life... You always told me Rish don't regret these lessons help you to see the bigger picture and move ahead in life.... :)

 

Thanks to each one of you for making a difference in my life, for motivating me... I salute you all.. :)

Memories... They make us, they break us

Forget it. A phrase which is easy to say but equally difficult when it comes to implementing it. Forgetting something is as difficult as remembering. In these years of my life I realized that we cant control everything and memories are one of them. When we live our life in our style we create memories. Those good times when we smile without worrying about future.... are memories. Those moments when we live our life king size are memories....

But there are some memories which are not welcomed by our thoughts. These are those memories we wish to forget and move on. We don't understand that these are the memories we cherished, these are the memories which are closest to hearts.

Things cant be good all the time... Bad memories always teach us something. These bad memories leave scars but they also teach us what not to do in life. Also sometimes good memories turn into bad ones.

These memories break us because of those good memories we go back to our past and think of what happened, how things changed and these memories have the tendency to break us and sometimes we thrive because of these memories.....

Again, I say forget it and move on...